
Lent begins today, of course. I love Lent. Advent used to be my favourite season in the Christian year, but Lent has supplanted it. I like this season of focus -- abstinence -- prayer -- getting beyond so much self -- hoping for grace to transform the deep places.
The first two days of this week felt like I was getting ready for a long trip -- Lent and holidays are similar that way -- I clear the decks as much as possible so that when I return, I'm not terribly behind on everything. And since the practices this Lent are shaping up to support a more focused and prayerful dedication in two specific areas (the next phase of thesis writing & foundational work in our Childrens' ministry), there were a number of details to be settled in the other arenas of life in preparation: house and cupboards and fridge cleaned out -- the second tier "to-do's" done -- a post Easter family trip to finish arranging -- Durham travel to be booked -- a "fat Tuesday" serving of chocolate log at the Black Faced Sheep ...
With Lent just around the corner, there was an article in the weekend edition of the Times that caught my eye -- it was titled "Abstinence: the science of pleasure." The article itself wasn't so interesting -- too much science and not enough pleasure! But it reminded me to be intentional rather than habitual in my fast this year -- to pay attention so that the "how" and the "why" of fasting held together...
One Catholic prayer for Ash Wednesday speaks about "the quiet remembrance of our need for redemption" -- this is why some sort of fast has, each year, become central to my lenten observance. In my experience, lenten fasts are relentless -- 40+ days of the quiet, physical reminder that I am in need of redemption -- liberty from the ways of self, and the ways of the world.
"Fasting is the amplification of prayer. It clears our perception from the confusion of worldliness. It reminds us that our souls utterly depend on the Word of God: not just Scripture, but the whole ministry of the Holy Spirit. And so we happily fast, because fasting is the way to live abundantly and in liberty."

And just a few minutes ago I was reminded of one reason that I choose to fast over the course of Lent. (It's easy to forget, especially since I'm a bundle of food cravings during the day -- the dangers of desk work in my own home.) A few minutes ago, I was warming my hands on a mug of Miso soup -- which was such a pleasure, both to hold and to sip.
This in turn enlivens me to the other pleasures in this wee cottage that I pass over, like taking pleasure from the sight of my fire springing back to flame after I've re-opened the draft -- or the pleasure of 4 clear glass votive candle holders arranged in a simple line across the centre of my dining room table. Not to mention the pleasure -- at the outset of a lenten journey -- of tasting a bit of the fruit of my destination: redemption from the numbness of excess.